My Hopes & Dreams

2009-01-23T22:57:00.000-08:00

Chinese new year is like 2 days from now.
SOmetimes i wonder how its possible to feel rushed and damn busy one minute, and bored and rotting to death the next...
Its a horrible feeling...
...ah well...
just moving on.

What if.

2008-12-30T21:52:00.000-08:00

Today Is The Last Day Of The Year 2008!!

GAHH! anyways...

Here's to all my friends and family.
Here's to the times we spent together.
When we laughed, smiled, cried and blamed each other.
Here's to the people who have walked in and out or are still in my life.
Every night when i say a prayer before i go to sleep, I'll thank God, for giving me a blessed life with no regrets. For each and every single person who has etched a mark in my heart.
We all don't know what the new year will bring- and that scares me, but no matter what happens, even if we end up going our own seperate ways... God will always replace that hole in you're heart. So I guess there's no need to be afraid. 'Cause its all part of life...

So what i'm trying to say is that each and every person (really and truly) are really important to me and you all make up the story of my life.
And i am truly grateful.

So have a happy and blessed new year, and i wish you all in the hope that all our dreams will come true=D

This is my pledge, dearest one, I will stand by you,... and no matter whether the wine be bitter or sweet, we will share it together and find happinessin the comradeship.

-Edith Bolling Galt (1872-1961)

2008-12-27T05:01:00.000-08:00

Went to Bakerzin to eat...they had rally good deserts there...

And this sign was at the big park ontop of Vivo City

LOL

2008-12-27T04:27:00.000-08:00

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
er...i think my parents just found the name cool.
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
When my bro pulled my injured toe, which had been stepped on 3 times already, it was hurting like shit.
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
no, not really...
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
eh...mutton=D
5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS ?
No.
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
If i tried to be funny and said no, i'd just be in denial.
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT?
kinda.
8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS
yep.
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
hmm....we'll see if i get up there in the first place.
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
Milo balls (hahahaha)
11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
Nope.
12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG?
not when my brother is wrestling me.
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
Raspberry sorbet, cookies and cream.
14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
The way they're dressed.
15. RED OR PINK?
Red.
16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
My skin.
17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST WHEN YOU ARE AWAY FROM HOME ?
I dunno eh....
18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU?
No, don't waste my time and yours.
19. WHAT COLOR SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
Not wearing any shoes now...
20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
Hotplate.
21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW ?
Poppin' champagne - All Time Low
22. IF YOU WHERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
eh...Maroon.
23. FAVORITE SMELLS?
Bak kut teh in the afternoon=D
24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
My grandmum's friend.
25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
Uhuh. They're cool.
26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
My family playing pool (snooker).
27. Hair Color?
brownish black.

28. EYE COLOR?
Dark brown.
29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
Sometimes. Depends on occassion.
30. FAVORITE FOOD ?
Bak Kut Teh.
31. SCARY MOVIES OR comedy
Comedy.
32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
5 centimeters per second (japanese anime movie) Its a bloody nice show, real sad, but its reality.
33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
light pink...
34. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Summer. Get a tan yeah??
35. HUGS OR KISSES?
Hugs. Then can get from everyone without feeling awkward=D
36. FAVORITE DESSERT?
Mango Pudding<3
37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
huh? what's this question mean??
38. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND
ditto.
39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW ?
Currently, nothing, but my last book was THE GIFT by Cecelia Ahern.<3
40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
I don't have a mouse pad. They're a waste of money.
41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
I was too busy playing guitar heroes to watch anything...
2. FAVORITE SOUND?
Everything and anything...except someone farting...
43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
Beatles.
44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME???
L.A.
45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
Visual Arts.
46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
Singapore General Hospital. It was to expensive to get me to a private hospital like Mt.E or something.

2008-12-26T22:51:00.000-08:00

1) put ur itunes on shuffle.2)for each question, press next for your answer.3)YOU MUST WRITE DOWN THE NAME OF THE SONG NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.4)tag 11 friends hu might enjoy this.

1. if someone saes :' is this okay?' u sae...
Kisses and Cake - John Powell (instrumental). Good choice!

2. wad would best describe ur personality?
Yeah - Kelly Clarkson. I like straight answers.

3. wad do u like in a girl/guy?
Silent Night - Sarah McLachlan. LOL hahahahahaha. okok. er, must be religion loving??

4. how do u feel today?
Rescue me- Ricardo ( hey thats my uncle's name!) God has rescued me....from all the troubles in the world çause i feel really blessed!

5. what is your life's purpose?
Heavily Broken- The Veronicas. Hmm... Being loved, and hopefully not being heavily broken...

6. what is your motto?
Sugar we.'re going down - Fall Out Boy. huh..I can't even hear the lyrics properly....haha=D

7. what do your friends think of you?this mean?
Almost lover- A Fine Frenzy (lol) My friends love me so much they could almost be my lovers... hahahaha (jkjk)

8. what do you think of your parents?
We Cry- The Script . eh.... They can sometimes be really controlling but i guess its for my best. I still love them.

9. what do you think about very often?
A Twist In My Story - Secondhand Serenade. SOmetimes i bottle up my feelings until i feel like exploding. I just need to shout it out.

10. what is 2+2?
You Don't know my Name- Alicia Keys. er...what kinda question is that???

11. what do you think of your best friend?
Can I Have This Dance? - HSM3 (hmm) Dots....

12. what do you think of the person you like?
Here Without You- 3 Doors Down. nah, I here without you, so what? its my house.=P ( and no, i do not dream about you)*shudder*

16. what do your parents think of you?
Mr Brightside- The Killers. They think i'm helplessly in love....seriously...they're like super suspicious its scary.

17. what will you like to dance to at your wedding?
Jesus Take the Wheel- Carrie Underwood. Erm, its a nice and meaningful song and all but i don't think its a song to dance to....especially at a wedding...

18. what will they play at your funeral?
Everything in its time- Corrine May. Yeah, this song its kinda gd for a funeral, its comforting to remind everybody things happen in its own time.

19. what is your hobby/interest?
Bad Reputation - Halfcocked (LOL) er...i DO care about my reputation...

20. what is your biggest secret?
One - Mary J. Blidge & U2. hmm......What kinda question is this???

21. what do you think of your friends?
Shake it - Metrostation. hmm, they like to shake it???lol They're the most fun bunch of ppl ever!

22. what's the worst thing that can happen?
Can We Chill- NeYo. Whatever happens, just chill...........

23. how will you die?
Shut up- Simple Plan. Its a sign saying that is a stupid question. and nothing you say can bring me down.haha.

24. does anybody like you?
Don't waste your time - Kelly Clarkson. haha...don't waste your time asking.

25. if you could go back in time...wad would you change?
The Story - Brandi Carlile. "All of these lines across my face, tell you the story of who i am"....Nah, i wouldn't change anything....no regrets....God's choice anyways...

26. what hurts right now?
Don't Give Up on Me- Daniel Powter. Stuff that is for me to know and you to find out.

27. what would you post this as?
I could get used to this - The Veronicas. I could get used to fun quizzes asking stupid questions??

11 ppl u would like to tag:
Nah, i think alot of ppl got tagged alrdy, so i won''t waste my timne tagging ppl...

rush hour

2008-12-23T06:51:00.000-08:00

Started in me blackbook.=D
accidentally drew the 2nd and 3rd page upside down.hehe.
Tmr is christmas eve. This year's already ending so quickly!!!AHHH!!!!
I feel rushed.
I feel somethings aren't completed yet.
I feel somethings aren't ready to leave yet.
Christmas is coming, and the new year but somehow, i don't feel ready and elated like i should be.
Insecure, a bit scared, abit excited, a bit blur....

Here's a tribute to Lesley, who's migrating to Australia this sunday.
Even though she doesn't read my blog, (i don't think she even knows i have 1), anyway,
Here's to all the years ( i think 2 and a half??) we were in Legion together. You have always been a faithful legionary, even if u didn't come for many meetings (çause you were busy with ur family), u still were faithful in your prayers and all....
So I wish u all the best wherever you may be, and hope that one day, we'll meet again=D
Cheers!

2008-12-22T06:05:00.000-08:00

I don't think christmas is a time of giving.
I think christmas is a time of sharing.

The Gift

2008-12-17T07:44:00.000-08:00

Christmas is approaching fast and time isn't waiting for anyone.
haha.
SO much being done.
Ooh, book recommendation - The Gift, by Cecelia Ahern.
Its the best christmas book in a long time...
Its about this guy, who works too long, and only think about his promotion.
He learns the value of time and what matters in life.
Its a very inspiring book.

Each second makes a mark on every single person's life; comes and then goes, quickly disappearing without fanfare, evaporating into air like steam from a piping hot christmas pudding. Enough time leaves us warm; when our time is gone, it too leaves us cold. Time is more precious than gold, more precious than diamonds, more precious than oil or any valuable treasures. It it time that we do not have enough of; it is timethat causes the war within our hearts, and so we must spend it wisely. Time cannot be packaged and ribboned and left under trees for christmas morning.
Time can't be given, but it can be shared.

-The Gift, Cecelia Ahern

Its not about the things we do during christmas,
but the christmas things we do all year round.

Hoorah for the Irish

2008-12-10T20:53:00.000-08:00

haha.
just came across the most amusing christmas song by the Pogues- they're a really old irish/english band.
i love the Irish and their crude ways!!
Now i know why my grandfather like to call everyone bloody fools!
'cause he's 1/2 irish!
haha, check the song out, its called Fairytale of New york.

here's the nice part- i've got a feeling,
this year's for me and you,
so merry christmas
I love you baby
I can see a better time
where all our dreams come true

here's the crude part- You're a bum, you're a punk,
you're an old slut on junk,
lying there almost dead,
on a drip in that bed.

You scumbag, you maggot
you cheap lousy faggot
merry christmas my arse,
I pray god its our last.

If this post has offended anyone in anyway, i am sincerely, sorry, and will not bring it up again.

2008-12-10T04:49:00.000-08:00

hmm... talking to Leti and Nick now. lol.
just came back from dance concert, helped with the little ones backstage.
Their noisy, stubborn and have to go to the loo every 10 mins...
but they're bloody cute!

They tell u that good girls are quiet and they should never ask why,
'cause it only makes it harder to fit in.
You should be happy, excited, even if you're just invited,
'cause the winners need someone to clap for them.

Walking down Sunshine Avenue

2008-12-06T02:11:00.000-08:00

Here's a poem i found while looking at blogskins...

Running through the meadow
laughing at the sky
opening our hearts
letting sorrow fly

picking up flowers
strewn along the way
blessing all the sunshine
warming up our day

laughter dancing gaily
freeing all our woes
feeling soft and dewy grass
in between our toes

sunshine warming deeply
all our hidden fears
soaking up our heartaches
drying all our tears

hand in hand we wander
across the lonely field
showing a heavy harvest
with happiness its yield

-By Pamela Morrissey

2008-12-05T22:20:00.000-08:00

Damn busy planning...

Got LOM X'mas party...

Then got Youth Advocacy project...

Its a friggin islandwide thing...
ARGH!
I want to enjoy my holiday dammit!

life in the sand

2008-12-04T02:37:00.000-08:00

Standing on the beach, i realised two things,...
one not at all relavant so i need not state,
the other was that the beach is like our lives...
we take forever to build something in the sand and when its done u have to leave it for the waves to simply wash it away...
just like how we become someone or work on something that we hold dear, but at the end of the day, it really doesn't last...
only the process and time u took to build that thing in the sand will last,
and that is what matters.

Building relationships with the people around you-
cherish every second you spend with him/her.
Because they won't be at your side forever...
only memories of the time you spent together can be carried with you wherever you go.

2008-12-04T02:20:00.000-08:00

Even if nobody wants or needs to know, no, I am not okay.
God knows, i stood beside the church thinking of the past days over and over again until my head was going to explode. (it felt like hrs waiting for the car) while everybody was having a great time upstairs.
I couldn't stop listening to music.
I couldn't stop thinking.
Stupid knee won't let me forget either.
Bintan was really what i needed.
Cool breeze, beautiful beaches, billiards everynite, Drove the buggy, almost drove it in the drain.
Lazer quest, doom buggy.
But everynite, when i laid in my bed and wrote in my diary, and listened to music, I couldn't forget again.

sucks.

The Holiday's just Begun!

2008-11-26T02:46:00.000-08:00

Tmr is FINALLY JXY. haha
X'mas party more or less planned out. Today's meeting full attendance. I came 45 mins early, then mag came like 5 mins later, then Jerome, then waited bloody long for Chan before heading to BK. Wanted to change x'mas theme. All the girls were against it. James and Chun came later.
Holiday Update(Not like anybody is really interested in my life anyway...):
Bintan trip next week.
So Many things happening this month
ooh. tip for boys.: Go listen to the song, If I Were A Boy, by Beyonce.
er...
Broke from all the present shopping...
waiting for next weeks allowance...
knee boarding at Bintan!!!!
WOOH!
6 years later and my handwriting still hasn't improved.
I'm having a lot of wierd dreams about people and their hair....
Maybe its a sign...
Grandma's death anniversary on Sunday.

When a heart breaks, no, it don't breakeven.
-The Script, Breakeven

2008-11-12T06:24:00.001-08:00

Thinking of changing my blog skin....
but it will take bloody long...

2008-11-05T22:00:00.000-08:00

Come back from camp. slack.
slept at 9 :30 and woke up at 10.
Whole body was aching.
Bored at home.
Songs i am currently listening to:
Boston- Augutana
Warwick avenue- Duffy
Broken- Lifehouse
If this is goodbye- lifehouse
shake it- metrostation
If everyone cared- Nickelback
Gotta be somebody- nickelback
Them man who can't be moved- The script
Make damn sure- taking back sunday
Check yes Juliet- We the kings
Skyway avenue- We the kings

Final year speech (haha)

2008-10-30T05:05:00.000-07:00

Last week of school and the year just flew by...
Made friends and found their true colours,
Had so much fun this year.
I am so bloody proud of my sch...
Everybody is so (and i stress on the 'so') talented=D
No joking.
looking at the showcases and all have me thinking about the value of this sch
and the ppl there.
I am definitely looking forward to the next year,
and joining my friends again.

Thanks to,
Shifaa- for always having something to say in a conversation.
Dorcas- for being the most cheerful, greateset friend ever. (Get well soon, yeah?)
Cindy- for always getting into fake quarrels with me=D
Viraj- being lively and funny and making that brooch.
Celeste- Always entertaining me during assembly.
Renee- Always poking me...
Nikki- lovely fonts
Amelia- great VA buddy=D
Nicole- making a conversation more animated (hehe)
Shammah- being my first VA friend who is not in my (normal)class.
Si Yun- Helping me with the art exhibition when no one else would.
Mr Khiew- Giving me long but fruitful feedback=)
Ms Jaqui- er... being you=D
Ms Su- Being very supportive of our class.
Mrs Sim- Being a great teacher!
Mr Gilchrist- For being there.

Thanks people!!
Enjoy your school holidays while they last!

2008-09-27T02:43:00.000-07:00

Ballet exams over
this means...
I'M GOING BACK FOR LEGION MEETINGS!!!
WOHOO!!!
Mugging for end year exams these days...
the year flew by sooo fast!
Gonna be years 2 soon!
Its kinda early, but here's
List of things i'm looking forward too after exams
1. New Stuff
2. Christmas
3. JXY!
4. Ballet Chalet (rhymes:))
5. 2 glorious weeks of holiday
6. More time on the com
7. More time reading
8. More time sleeping
9. More time to practise guitar
10. More time for art
11. Contact Lenses
12. More time to go jogging
13. More time at LOM meetings.
14. More time to organise LOM x'mas Party
15. The actual x'mas party!
16. More time to watch movies
17. More time with friends!!
18. More time for music
19. Grade 7 ballet
20. More time with Family

Here's what i'm wishing for...
1. not to go blind ...
2. I will grow taller. (i stopped growing!!)
3. x'mas party will actually go well (from the rate we're planning, i'm not so sure...)
4. New books!!!
5. Headphones repaired
6. I'll be able to play chord F and B on the guitar
7. New shoes!
8. Be able to do splits (i don't think its possible)
9. New inspiration
10. Great Year ahead!

2008-09-10T03:58:00.000-07:00

Ooo..
I learnt a new word today=D
The Ephemeral
it means something that will never last....

2008-08-29T00:30:00.000-07:00

darn...can't upload video for some reason...
check out these 2 videos at youtube...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QW4BFMyukIY
Dear Oprah by Susan Cagle... real life inspirational song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yYQiivAzfrU
Stole by Kelly Rowlands... its about what you wanna do wif u're life

Cool videos.

2008-08-22T07:02:00.000-07:00

ooh...
long time nvr blogged....sry
not supposed to use the com.

Anyway....
Ghost whisperer starting....ahhhh....

SOTA ARTS FESTIVAL just ended last week and NONE OF MY FRIENDS COME TO SUPPORT...hmmmm....

IT was awesome and very tiring.
that whole week, we started sch at 10:30 and ended at 9pm every day.
Everybody in my sch had obvious eyebags.
I watched the play by my theatre friends, called "ANIMAL FARM"..
some politic animal thingy.
The whole show makes u're hair stand....

Then there was the dance performances... chinese dance, ballet, broadway, and contemporary.
Contemp was very gd=D

The year 1 visual artist HANDMADE flying objects totaling to about 4,000 flying objects
planned created and made in a month
coolio=)
2,000 paper aeroplanes in 3 hrs=)
Year 1 VA students rock!
*the flying objects were for our closing performance

Exams are over, year s coming to an end...
dangdangdangdang!

haha
today was really gd day
couldn't stop smiling=)
woke up at 7 cause sch starts at 9 (heh)
assembly...stupid IDU assesment...-.-
ok first half was kinda boring...

anyway, had chinese for 2 hrs
(btw guys, you owe the girls stuff for losing today=) )
then sumore talk on IDU....
then the girls were all screaming over this cocasion guy they saw in the sch
they were literally screaming inside the bookshop
(the windows are tinted so inside can see outside but outside cannot see inside)
hot guy

then we went to cathay to watch RED CLIFF
it is a seriously damn gd movie
even when it is in chinese
for $1 per person only
our sch book the whole movie hall
so everybody inside are only sota students
who made a lot of noise at certain parts of the movie*ahem*
Takeshi kaneshiro is gd looking even with a beard
haha

did i mention that that building is directly next to our new sch building so we were all imagining ourselves walking back to the MRT station after sch...3 girls squeezing inderneath 1 umbrella...
well not really cause i rather walked in the rain.

but we were having so much fun=)

and my friend asked me why i couldn't stop smiling...
i smiled from dhoby ghaut all the way to simei
haha

TODAY was a really gd day=)

and i really want to watch ghost whisperer so i'll stop typing here

heehee

2008-07-04T07:11:00.000-07:00

SECONDHAND SERENADE IS LIKE E BEST BAND IN THE WORLD!!!
love thier guitar,
love their lyrics,
love the emo love songs.

WOOT!!!
piano exam is over!
First youth day!!!
I helped design the NDP fun pack!
My friends rock!!!
My school rocks!!!
Today i'm super high!!!
WEEEE!!!!

Random pics

2008-06-27T04:58:00.000-07:00

hehe
Our leaning pot

I <3 this photo!

Reaching for the sky
Mas Selamat's poster

confusion
Me and my bro singing and playing the guitar=D

2008-06-26T05:59:00.000-07:00

My life sucks big time....

My mum is threatening to take me out of SOTA 'cause i suck at summary writing...
and because i'm not in the top five in Visual arts...

Do u know wad kinda of shitty feeling that is??

its better to not have joined the sch at all...
then join then be pulled out when u start to settle in...

she thinks i don't try hard enough...

SOTA is for ppl with passion,
not ppl with grades...

now she starts criticizing my art...

asking why my friends can get 80 for drawing...
while i get 78...

she's always comparing me...

saying ppl won't like that idea of materials used...

she hardly ever encourages me anymore...

its just so hard....

2008-06-15T05:26:00.000-07:00

I had this wierd dream few nites ago...

I walked into this room, and like most of the ppl close to me from LOM were sitting around this rectangular table and were whispering to each other and shooting me unkind glances. Then Nick accused me of sumthing, can't remeber wad, then i got damn pissed and ran out of the room. Then i started crying.

PHUKET!!

2008-06-15T03:37:00.000-07:00

Finally get time to post about me holiday at phuket

here goes...

Day 1:In Thailand, do as the Thais do
woke up at 0600 and left for Budget terminal at Changi airport
reached the airport when Renyi's plane just departed
got onto the plane(Tiger Airways) at 0830 reached phuket, Thailand at 1000
got our bags and met our taxi driver who my father hired to drive us wherever, whenever we wanted to. (He was like a really really nice tour guide)
Checked in at Holiday Inn where we stayed. Really nice place.
Then we went to ride elephants.( I have yet to get the pics downloaded from the camera)
The guy leading the elephant made us a fish and a bird with a leaf, like origami.
Kinda funny really, cause we were like really scared we would fall off, even with belts on, 'cause there's this downhill uphill slopes, but the guy was just sitting there on the elephants head making origami...
after that we wanted to either play paintball or rifle shooting, but we settled for going back to the hotel so we could swim at the beach. Then at night we shopped a bit then we ate at this roadside seafood restaurant. I got to eat LOBSTER, SMEARED WITH GARLIC, BUTTER and cooked to perfection. Hee=DWe ate other seafood, and TOMYAM. i <3>
after that i went back to knock out. My bro, dad, and grandad went to watch muay thai boxing.

Day 2:Sailing, sailing, over the bounty seas...
We woke up, had breakfast at the hotel's restaurant then we drove for 2 hrs to phangna where we got on a private boat. We went to this canoe place where they will canoe us to little caves here and there some like caverns where u go inside and u look around u is all rock wall, but when u look up way up, u can see the sky...ITS SOOO AWESOME!!.. sadly no pics cause it was drizziling and my dad didnt want to "spoil his camera lens". There was this rock which looked like sumone praying..
After that we sat on the boat and went to JAMES BOND ISLAND!!!!its actually just a rock...-.- but when u go to phuket , u should see james bond island.yup.
Then we sailed to this village by the sea place and had sumore seafood. and <3>
Then we sailed back. Then we went to this place where they farm pearls...and my dad spent like few thousand dollars on my mum...At first they kept discussing about which pearl would match wad, my baby sis was making friends with the ladies working there and my bro was watching a movie on his psp. after a very long half an hour there they bought their things and left. We went to the Lemongrass House where they sold scented things. It was really nice being there. We bought things like bottles of scented pillow sprays...-.-, mosquito repellent, soaps, stuff to burn... and we ended up carrying a bow load of stuff back 'cause the things there are SUPER CHEAP. Then we walked along our hotel and found this western food restaurant which had really expensive food. I ate surf 'n turf. Then we shopped a bit more. then we went back home to sleep.

Day 3:Kinda a waste of time
My mum and dad left to play GOLF...at 6 sumthing in the morning. the rest of my family had breakfast and i just slept in until they came back then we went swimming at the beach (I LOVE PLAYING WITH THE WAVES) then at the pools. When my parents came back, my father brought my sis and i to braid our hair...as in everything into many little little braids...i'm so glad u guys haven't seen me yet. I look VERY VERY DIFFERENT.-.- it took like 2 hrs and my but got really tired.
after that we went shopping at downtown Phuket. We went to this mall and ate dougnuts and bought chengmai silver at like 95 baht for each piece...that less the $4.50. (Which is very cheap)
The guy there selling the silver was like demonstrating its real silver by asking u to hold on the the ends of the chain while he takes a chopper and like runs it over the chain,... and there's no scratches... but ppl walk away cause it really scary to have a chopper almost slice u're finger.lol.
after that we ate a t a thai restaurant where we had tomyam<3>

Day 4: Home sweet Home.
We got up at 0700 and left for the airport. said goodbye to our lovely taxi driver then ate breakfast at the burgerking. My sis was having stomach problems and had to go to the toilet like every 5 mins to throw up or sumthing. We got on the(budget) plane again and waved adieu to Phuket. came home and knocked out on my bed.

2008-06-01T07:02:00.000-07:00

Today was one of the most brainwrecking days of my life...

I slept at 3:45a.m. this morning doing a b'dae card for leti 'cause i couldn't sleep.

went for the 8:45 mass, then chiong to ballet.

after ballet i had 45 mins to reach Trin and i had no idea where i was going.

i wondered around the streets for half an hour looking for the stupid bus 17 bus stop....

then took the bus to holy trin.

When my sister came, i suddenly felt kinda low...

I truthfully don't want her to join...

'cause this is my thing, my family, my secrets are shared here...

and i get to see her everyday of my life...

i'm just being very selfish...

Then i come home and i talk about the fun i had

and father goes on again talking about how family is the closest thing u'll ever get... and it's important to look after them..

And there's this thing that keeps bugging me

and because i couldn't think straight, i didn't have genuine fun today...

but it was nice to see so many new faces=D

thats why i hate ballet

2008-05-25T00:52:00.000-07:00

I hate my ballet...\
I have to miss or be very late for meetings until August...
ARGH!
Today i woke up at 0745 and went for the 0845 mass...
then after the mass i was supposed to got straight to ballet...
but i went for a accidental Joy ride instead...
I took bus 24 from church and was supposed to change to bus 5 at the bus stop near my house...
but i was busy listening to music and realised i just missed my stop..
but the sucky part is that after my stop..
its a highway to Changi airport...
and i got off @ the next stop which was in the middle of the airport runway...well sumthin like that...
then i realised there was no bus stop there to backtrack,
so i waited for another bus and took it to terminal 3 basement...
then i took the MRT to Expo...
then walked to my house bustop\
then took bus 5 to Loyang and reached my ballet studio in 1 piece...
HOW COOL WAS THAT.!!
I panicked the whole way...
so u can't blame me if i didn't just stay in the bus and wait for it to do a u-turn...
and that was how i spent 1 and a half hours getting myself late...
and in the end...i couldn't leave ballet half an hour earlier to come for meeting...
and thats why i didn't go for meeting...'cause i had ballet..
but i hadn't changed into my ballet clothes and there was no changing room...
so i told my teacher i wasn't feeling well..
so i just sat and watched the others dance...

I wasted my whole morning just cause i missed 1 STOP ... I hate ballet

2008-05-22T23:59:00.000-07:00

My dog is getting better...
yah... she was really sick 'cause her blood was infected and it affected her liver and she was so weak, she couldn't even stand...
now she can stagger and wag her tail...
she almost had to either go for an operation, or get blood transfer...
I was really worried....
and felt really guilty... 'cause I didn't like bring her for a walk in like 2 weeks.. and the day i did...she wasn't feeling well and me and my sister just thought she was tired...
Then the next day she couldn't satand up and wouldn't eat...then we got worried...

Just came back from my SOTA year 1 camp. Senate and the People Of Rome. there was only games on the 2nd day...but it was still fun... really tired... sweaty... sunburnt...

And for those who have asked... I'm fine... mostly it revovled around my dog being sick and some sch stuff... no worries..tnks for the concern...

2008-05-18T08:53:00.000-07:00

My life is a bunch of dashed hopes and lost dreams...

my trip to the peranakan museum

2008-05-03T05:42:00.000-07:00

I went with my classmate to the Peranakan Museum...

We didn't get the info we wanted...

but ended up taking pics of everything and anything...

The Pictures u are about to see are not the complete collection...

and we weren't allowed to take photos of the exhibits...

just stuff along the road...

Oh and if u're wondering...

The museum is really interesting...

but quite small

The Inside of The peranakan museum

its at Armenian street

Outside the Peranakan museum
"let's all go in!"

Whats inside u're chair

Did u know we have Famous people's handprints too?

Look at those chips...How to cross the road for dummiesTaxi sign We got horned at for taking pictures while crossing the road

The nearest MRT station

Our feet in the railings of a staircase Nobody ever follows this sign
I like feet

2008-04-30T22:59:00.000-07:00

I was reading Mark's blog when i stumbled on his eulogy...
and it brought back memories of him...
and i wonder when was the last time i cried..
for him...

Around last year, or the year before, when he first got hospitalised... my sis and i never saw him get into the back of an ambulance and drive off before... so we cried...
then i heard his condition stabalised..
that night i wondered... if he were to pass... i would surely cry every night for at least a whole week...maybe even emo in school...

but i didn't...

and it makes me feel no longing or attachment to him...
and that makes me feel so guilty...
but i miss him so much...
and when i think stupid stuff i don't wanna think about... i wonder... can he hear my thoughts?...
is he feeling ashamed of me??..

when i read Mark's post i cried and cried...
'cause all my feelings of shame lonliness and guilt came flooding back...

i remeber coming home everyday...and he would say "hello SOTA... how was school"
then i would smile and kiss him on the cheek...
but now i come home to an empty rocking chair in the corner...without a cheek to kiss...
and i remember...
and it hurts...

2008-04-30T07:17:00.000-07:00

I just realised my blog doesn't have an archive...
got my Year 1 camp comin up...5 day camp...in school...
Theme: S.P.Q.R= Sparta and the People Of Rome
i'm helpin out but can't drop anymore hints
gonna be physical type of camp again...but 5 DAYS...
die.
Oh. And there's some guy who i suspect likes me...
I think i'm going nuts-.-
AAARRRGGHH...
My cathecism teacher still owes me a drink.
and for ex 6HIans... Mrs Teo (who is suspected to be 40 or even 50+) can do a SINGLE HAND HANDSTAND...and is teaching the present 6HIans..how unfair...

2008-04-24T03:13:00.000-07:00

Dad's comin home today, from Pakistan
My teachers got married on Saturday...and they've only know each other since JANUARY...THIS JANUARY...wierd.
Passed my whole math test by 1and a half marks
ehh...
oh for Earth week, my school set up a bazaar of our donated 2nd hand items... my friend is wearing my teachers old cardigan,...harhar.. we are trying to raise 3 trees which cost a total of $600.
My school library is a let down... i can count the nmber of books there...they haven't unpacked yet..
worst part is that there a re more mother tongue books on the shelves than english books-.-"
I walked a good 4km back home from the MRT station today... then finished my less than 600 hundred word essay on this man's life,...very hard to summarise...
gtg design my camp shirt...

2008-04-18T01:04:00.000-07:00

Failed maths paper 1 by 1 mark!!! Stupid JC calculator no use
Failed science paper because measurment not accurate-.-
Chinese test was to make a brochure..i'm definitely gonna pass...WOOT!
IHSS we have to plant plants and make sure they grow... easy.heh.
I topped cohort in lit*grin* harhar.
very bored these few days 'cause cannot use com when my parents around...ARGHH...

2008-04-15T06:11:00.000-07:00

its so hard to do the right thing...
When u're at an art exhibition and u're supposed to really feel the artworks around you but u're friends just wanna sit down and gossip wad do u do??
When you have a camp(church) and u're friends want to play hardcore dare in the middle of the night do u follow them or sleep??
I'm always doing the right thing... then my friends would rather do the opposite...
very lonnely...

Sushi and tea sushi and tea

2008-04-13T05:18:00.000-07:00

Went to Sakae Sushi last night for dinner. The lady said we might have to que up for about 30 mins but we got in around 10 mins instead. Then i realised that 1 of my ballet friends sitting the table infront of mine and another friend's table beside mine... haha. It took 1 of them 15 mins to realise i was there..THe SUSHI IS JUST TOO GOOD><. Had Esprit Raspberry then hid the bottle in my grandmum's bag and brought it back home=D
I'm gonna learn POINTS soon!!! (for ballet) My toes are gonna break=D

Then today in cathecism class we talked about dreams and what we wanted to be in the future.
Me: hey Marissa, can i see yours??
Marissa: its kinda stupid lah...
Jodie: U want to be a designer?? oohh...Maybe next time Rachel sketch the desigh, u make design and i can do model choreography.
Rachel: its her dream lah.. don't go and ruin it by suddenly putting us in the picture-.-"

I wrote this out from the lesson today.
"Dream BIG dreams 'cause little ones have no magic"
And we shouldn't be afraid of dreaming big.

Then we talked about friends and the quality's we wanted in friends

Cathecist Angeline: Michael, tell us what u look for in a friend.
Michael: oh er.. my friend must be rich
Class: haha...Wahlao...Nobody wants to be u're friend larhh..-.-
Angeline: haha.. wad else?
Michael: oh.. must be generous..
Angeline: so u're friends quality's revolve around money...
Michael: and he must be gullible...
(after that we just moved on to the next person)
Angeline: so Spencer, wad do u want in a friend?
Spencer: .(long list of words 'cause he talks ALOT...) and must be cute...
Marissa: all these are quality's u want in a girl rite??
Bryan: If u want cute, might as well go marry a dog-.-...
(then the argument went on...)

and that was how my cat class went today=D

2008-04-11T01:34:00.000-07:00

The math test was easier than expected.
Today we had our gender talk.
On BGR.
it was funny.
and my class didn't win the debate. But one of my classmates got best speaker.
We read this today in LIT class:

The Paradoxical Commandments
By...er..nvm

People are illogical, unreasonable and self-centred
Love them anyway
The good you do will be forgotten tomorrow
Do good anyway
If you are successful, you will win false friends and true enemies
Succeed anyway
If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish ulterior motives
Do good anyway
Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable
Be honest and frank anyway
The biggest men and women with the biggest ideas can be shot down by the smallest men and women with the smallest minds
Think big anyway
People favour underdogs but follow only topdogs
Fight for a few underdogs anyway
What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight
Build anyway
People really need help but may attack you if you help them
Help people anyway
Give the world the best you have and you'll get kicked in the butt
Give the world the best you have anyway

Gone Fishin

2008-04-09T04:01:00.000-07:00

All The R4 girls

Some R1 Girls

Me and Malini (I'm never photogenic...dammit-.-)

The R4 Debate team

R4 Girls

A yellow butterfly

My baby cousin Rafael

My mum has 69 IMMEDIATE COUSINS...
We went to east coast park to pick up litter (which we did not actually do)
My baby sis saw grandpa in her dreams today, the seventh day
she said in the morning, "Grandpa go big party, dance waltz round and round."
and she never ever heard anybody say the word 'waltz' b4.
I'm glad he's happy=D
Tmr is maths test...gonna fail

the debate today was sooo cool!
Nat was talking so quickly and saying so many big words that nobody could understand half of wad she was saying. haha. The teacher was mouthing the word "woah."
NO HOMEWORK!

Life back to normal...

2008-04-08T03:58:00.000-07:00

ARC, Media ed., and Science tests the day i come back to sch...
MATH test the day after tmr. (I'm confirmed gonna fail)
And everybody kept asking me "Are you okay?? I'm soo sry."
*GROOAAANN*
I don't like sympathy... I want empathy...
ahhh...but other than that, sch was normal..
OHOH!
tmr got inter class debate! (our class ain't gonna win)

Walked past his room door and his bed was gone...
only left his fav cushioned rocking chair

Some pictures

2008-04-07T04:46:00.000-07:00

Our family

Paying our last respects

The altarThe grandchildren

When its all been said and done...

2008-04-07T03:39:00.000-07:00

Came home today feelin kinda empty.
Not gonna get over him too soon.
Paid our last tributes and everything.
Lot of ppl broke down.
Tnks to e ppl who consoled me along e way.
Very tired...

2008-04-05T22:17:00.000-07:00

okok. from now on, i'll try to be comitted to my blog.
i got too much free time aniwaes.
Pet, Robin, Cuiling, Angela and Monica came to my house for the wake.
Chun wanted to but her mum wouldn't allow her. Thanks for the offer though.
Haven't been going to sch for quite some time.
Missed alot of meetings too.
No more water to cry out anymore.
hehe. haven't been drinking alot.
Male cousins always playing DOLTA on the laptop and com so cannot use.
Leader of the Band is my new fav song 'cause it was Grandpa's fav song.
Everyday eat peanuts and fruit plus sweets.
Forgave Nick.
My sis doesn't noe how to sprinkle holy water.
we have had 20 reefs sent to our house so far.
My catechists came to my house too.
Cousins are sleeping in my bed. I have to sleep upstairs.
NO MORE PRIVACY.
How come my family nvr come?? HAH??
feelin kinda lonely...

LEADER OF THE BAND

An only child alone and wild, a cabinet maker's son
His hands were meant for different work but his heart was known to none.
He left his home and went his lone and solitary way
And he gave to me a gift i know i never can repay

A quiet man of music, denied a simpler fate
he tried to be a soldier once but his music wouldn't wait
he earned his love through discipline, a thund'ring velvet hand
His gentle means of sculpting souls took me years to understand

Chorus:
The leader of the band is tired and his eyes are growing old
but his blood runs through my instrument and his song is in my soul
My life has been a poor attempt to imitate the man
I'm just a living legacy to the leader of the band

His brother's lives were different for they heard another call
One went to chicago, the other to St. Paul
And i'm in Colorado when i'm not in some hotel
living out this live i chose and come to know so well

I thank you for the music and your stories of the road
I thank you for the freedom when it came my time to go
I thank you for the kindness and the times when you got tough
And papa i don't think i said " I love you" near enough

The leader of the band is tired and his eyes are growing old
but his blood runs through my instrument and his song is in my soul
my life has been a failed attempt to imitate the man
I'm just a living legacy, to the leader of the band

I am the living legacy to the leader of the band

New year!...under stress-.-"

2008-01-15T02:48:00.000-08:00

Sry very late...heh. Kinda restless these few days..haiz..and under stress...not from sch of course...hehe, MY SCHOOL ROCKS!!!..its from some other issue...i get nightmares if i don't pray b4 i sleep...stress...
I'm gonna be uncontactable these few days 'cause my hp confiscated..and for those hu noe my home no.....DON'T CALL ME!...MSN can use...heh. The outcome of countless nights of Conferencing...haiz...so sad...
** ******* ** ******...sigh*...GOD HELP ME!!!I"M SO LOST RIGHT NOW!!!! ARGHHHHH!!!!!!...I can't do one thing and i can't do another thing...WAD DO I DO?????????
What a greaaattt way to start the new year...with last year's stress continued...*sigh*...
can u imagine? right now, SCHOOL is my STRESS RELIEVER...haha...

I HATE SINGING NOW

2007-12-23T01:12:00.000-08:00

...Singing almost everyday for 2 hours...it sucks...really...Aniwae...our choir has been damn busy...like 2 days ago...we had to carol for this group of orphans...but not just any type of orphans...we were singing for MUSLIM orphans...yup...our choir didn't ask to do this...a guy from our choir asked us to do it...haiz...not much of an audience they were...didn't actually clap either...

Our conferencing is getting more and more boring...less to talk about... is everything going to change when the new year starts?...i wonder....

The pain of having an older brother...

2007-12-19T20:50:00.000-08:00

10 reasons why I sometimes hate my older brother

1. They boss you around... 1 time, my brother threatened to read my blog...under 1 condition, that i will change the radio station for him because the radio in my room was playing malay music for some reason...so i went to off the radio then come back out, he said " i said change the station not switch it off"... i was bloddy pissed already...but i still go change the station...change to 98 fm or something like that then when i came out of the room my bro said "ok, good. Now switch it off 'cause i going downstairs already..." Then i stared at him like a dog staring at a cat...i was fuming....that was 1 incident...

2. They take every chance they get to embarrass u in front of u're friends... my bro always hacks into my MSN account and pretends to be me... and change my MSN name to something stupid...

3.They bully you...my bro likes to fight with me and picks me up...carry me over his shoulder and slams me unto my bed... this is due to him watching wrestling too often...

4. They blame u for a lot of things...

5.They hog the computer when thats your only chance of using the computer that day...

6. They purposely irritate you so that you will fight with them...

7. They distract you when you are studying... My bro likes to blst his music when me and my sis study...

8. They pester you to sing lyrics of a song while they play the guitar...even though you have much better things to do

9. They try to read your SMSes...because i always wake up the latest...i am very vunerable in the morning...so i sleep with my hp under my pillow...

10. They hog the tv to watch wrestling when you and your sibling want to watch something more... less violent...

And those are the reasons why my brother annoys me...

To my bro:
If you are reading this now... YOU WILL NEVER SEE THE LIGHT OF DAY EVER AGAIN... I WILL FRAME YOU IN FRONT OF U'RE FRIENDS AND U'RE SOCIAL LIFE WILL BE OVER... MARK MY WORDS YOU WILL NOT LAST TO SEE TOMORROW...
tnk you for u're cooperation :)

Going out with friends 101

2007-12-19T01:23:00.000-08:00

I'm so tired... today, Xiao Ming Nian's having outing then some people from other zhi tuan's also invited... at SAFRA tampines... i reached there around 1015 hrs and onli CLarissa Nick and Daryl there... then we wait another 45 mins or so for the other ppl...Jerome, Shermaine, Abigail, Priscilla, Kang jo, Jojo, Ian, Jeremy... then we start bowling...then later John, Christian and Nigel came...but Nigel went home early. Wdh...i was damn pissed 'cause it was like Abi's 3rd time bowling but she was owning everybody else except Daryl... very funny cause ppl keep on throwing 2 balls at 1 go then the slower ball will always be stuck in the longkang...Then have to walk there and roll back the ball...By the end of first game Abi got 94, then i go emo...haiz... but second game i won Abi ...hehehe... then Abi go emo...haha...we were at each others throats...

Aniwaes our lane the girls play very fast so finish early... so i go play pool with Nick and Jerome... John played awhile then went somewhere...Winners:Me and Nick...Loser: Jerome.. then got second game...Winners:Me and Clarissa... Losers: Nick and Jojo...we played a third time but we going soon so everybody anyhow just shoot into the hole...hehe...Christian kept leaving his chocolate everywhere...then Ian just sitting on a chair thinking to himself...After awhile...ppl decided to go watch movie...Alvin and the chipmunks.

So we walk to the bust stop...then saw a bus coming, so we chiong...but the bus driver pretend not to see us and just drive off... #^*! him...aniwaes...everybody was blasting songs on their handphones...hehe...we sat at the back of the bus and made a lot of noise...especially Renyi, Jojo, Shaun and Jerome...Jeremy was having gastric...everybody talk very loud...like nobody's business...but nobody complain lah=p... @ GV we met up with Leticia...she was also watching that movie...but the tickets were selling fast so if we couldn't get enough seats, we would watch National Treasure...but we watched Alvin and the Chipmunks...sadly the only seats we could get were all seperated from one another...haiz...i was seating right at the side...but the show was really funny...after the show...we stood outside GV and waited for the ppl at the toilet to come back...i had to go off so i told Abi to count from 10 to 1 ( i did this last time when i went out with the legion ppl also)...then at 1 i said "ok, i gtg, bye!!"...everybody was like huh?? then i lauged and went off...then i realised i was walking in the wrong direction...hehehe=p

A BIG THANK U to Nick hu paid 4 my movie ticket...if not i would feel very left out...remind me to pay u back next time we meet...

AN ENORMOUS THANK U TO ALL THE PPL HU MADE TODAY FUN!!!I LUV U GUYS!!!

YES!YES!YES!!!!

2007-12-18T05:47:00.000-08:00

RENYI,U'RE A GENIUS!!!! Finally, i have a blog skin...yay!=p Okay, very high now...aniwaes...today quite fun.

Afternoon my couz Germaine had a poolside b'dae party. Luke and John were there too. We swam and played on the slide... i did commando crawl up the slide, then i couldn't feel my arms at all. Then me and John played Over The Wall...haha..it was really funny...after a while we got tired and it started to rain...so we went to bathe...I didn't noe boys took so long to bathe...realli...aniwaes...we had lunch and talked about who in legion annoys us most...No.1 ****.....Duh.....then the boys went to play LAN...and we went home.

Then i went online and convo with Shermaine, Abigail, Jojo, Jerome, Nick and, after some time, Renyi. We started talking about ...i kinda for got...aniwaes...then i had to vacum my room with my mum...so everybody was like typing in caps (like shouting 'cause of the sound from the vacum cleaner) ...haha...

I suck at editing HTML for the blogskin so i ask Renyi to help. Then 1 by 1 everybody left...until me shermaine and Renyi onli...then my com suddenly lag...so i restart..but everytime i restart the com screen won't go on...haiz...i had a hard time with the stupid com screen...then i went for dinner... come up, com still cannot work...then i was really fed up so i go watch tv, watch Maggie and me and The 60's. Come up i try 1 last time then can work...so i went online and from legion onli Renyi online...we were both wondering where everybody went...then he finally finished my blog...I WAS SUPER HIGH!!...I was bouncing up and down and thanking Renyi like xiao....ok...we get the point...so yah...hehe MY NEW BLOG SKIN!!!!WOHOO!Then renyi said maybe he should write a book called blogskins DIY or Blogskins for idiots... and i said i support u all the way...haha..

A BIG TNK U TO RENYI!!!YEAH!

Emotional Scar

2007-12-17T06:16:00.000-08:00

Nothing makes sense anymore,
you were my friend before.
Why did u leave me all alone,
stranded, broken without a home.
You backstabbed me, laughed and threw me aside.
Somehow i always knew we never saw eye to eye.
Made new friends but made me cry,
with nobody beside me to hear my sighs.
I longed for your love like a baby for its mother.
I longed for your smile in the cold of december.
How can i face the world again?
Your betrayal left a scar in me that never will heal.
Now i cannot love like i did before,
afraid others will show me the same torture i bore.
Do you know how lonely you left me?
Never the same cheerful person i will be.
But love you i still do, for the goodtimes you left me
To God do i pray to in hope that you will be.
be a much better friend to others around,
Be a better companion to the person you might have found
One thing i ask for is that you will never forget me
Life gives you lessons, this one was not for free.

Shoppin and Chattin...my life is full of bore

2007-12-17T02:18:00.000-08:00

i'm so bored...today i woke up and ate cereal for breakfast...then i went christmas shopping with my sisters, my mum and my bro...we parked at Wisma Atria...then we walked that shopping mall with the Lido theatre...u noe that one...nvm....we wanted to eat at the TCC...i love the deserts there... its like heaven on earth i tell ya...but we ended up eating somewhere else... i had Long John Silvers...and some baked rice...oh and a cookie....hehehe=p...then we wanted to eat desert at the TCC but had no time so we went shopping... i bought a white surfers paradise cardigan...then we had to get the things gift wrapped...the lady who wrapped the things quite slow...then go out the mall...it was raining...haiz...my mother go and pick up this golf trolley thing then we went walked through the underground passage to the other shopping mall... the one with the Borders bookstore...John should noe which one...then we walked back to wisma Atria...haiz...very vey boring...

come home i switch on the com and go lie on my bed awhile cause my com damn lag...EXTREMELY slow to start up...i go change then sit at the com... alot of ppl were online...then i talk to Abi, Chun, Clarissa, Jojo, Jerome, Chan then got other ppl but they hardly talk.....we talk about hu going on Wednesday...then when to meet and all... then Jojo keep asking things about wed..she thought nobody can see her... then Jerome started spamming....then i got bloody pissed... then i left the convo until Jerome shutup...then when i came back everything very quiet...then we talk somemore about wednesday...then Jojo ask what she should wear..and that she nvr bowl before...then i added John and Daniel... Daniel was working so he had to go off. He earns $2 and hour...pitiful...then john asked ppl to go see his blog and the stupid indian thing on youtube...then i was like" its sick, sick and wrong. If u girls want to turn horny then go ahead and watch." then john said even Ian found it funny then i said that the male species all think alike...they all say the same thing...then he said dun be so like that lah... so i said fine, i'll shutup..and i did ..then soon after they change topic...then after awhile john left and only the girls were talking...then Abi asked where all the guys were then i said---Chan is playing game, Jerome is emoing in a corner, Shaun's whereabouts are unknown, Nick is probably mapling(i was right) and Christian's whereabouts is also unknown--- then soon after jerome came back and he said i'm not emoing,i just finished doing rubics cube...then talk somemore...then nick came back...then i taold him i was going on wed then he was ...i think he was high...aniwaes then i had to go eat dinner...then come back...the onli ppl talking was Abi, Clarissa, Chan and i.... then Chan started parroting me...then i started parroting clarissa..then everybody was parroting everybody...then i started laughing like hell...i said my room got laughing gas...aniwaes...after awhile it got really very boring then nothing much then now i typing....haiz....

Somewhere the sun is shining

2007-12-16T02:30:00.000-08:00

Somewhere the sun is shining,
and the clouds are not in sight.
Somewhere someone's laughing,
and talking about what might.
What might have been another year,
for us to spend together.
What might have been another time,
that i could cherish forever.
Somewhere two people laugh and joke,
and carry on all day.
Talk about their past and future,
in an extraordinary way.
They talk about the last few years,
and how they made a bond.
They found it funny they both were different,
but both especially fond.
Fond of each other everyday,
so genuine and true.
A friend to tell of all your worries,
if ever you were blue.
To trust with all my secrets,
and keeping yours close to heart.
Knowing you will comfort me,
and sharing all our art.
Somewhere the sun is shining,
and we will meet again.
Become friends we always were,
and talk about what's been.
Although you're gone I know you're here,
to help me through hard times.
Help me make the right decisions,
when i don't see the signs.
Somewhere the sun is shining,
and you will be in my heart.
For you were more like a sister to me,
and we shall never part.
This is the time to let you know,
how much i really cared.
I love you no matter what,
and cherish the moments we shared.

In loving memory of Jinglin...

What is a friend? ( i love poetry)

2007-12-16T02:13:00.000-08:00

A friend is someone who understands and
someone you can trust.

They will listen to you both night and day
without ever making a fuss.

A friend will stand by your side when you are right
and sometimes when you are wrong.

They will hold you up when you are weak
and provide support to make you strong.

A friend's love is unconditional and unique in every way.

And when you have problems
a true friend will kneel with you and pray

A friend will stand by your side through thick and thin.

And whenever everyone has deserted you
they will still be your friend.

A friend once said to me that a friend is sent from God above
and i believe this is true.

Because God sent a friend to me and that friend is YOU.

It's My Life...

2007-12-16T00:22:00.000-08:00

Last night my mother caught me conferencing...'cause my father was trying to call home but phone engage...this morning went to choir practice, then had mass, then had meeting...Cuiling came by to give us presents...went home, had lunch then chat with Jerome on MSN...after awhile i invited Leti and Monica...then Jerome and Monica started quarelling...then Leti very confused...then my mother ORDERED me to go read a book, so cannot use MSN...then now i typing loh... everyday very sian...haiz...

2007-12-15T04:18:00.000-08:00

More or less it was a really boring day...spent most of the day chatting on MSN with Daniel...he works at a LAN shop...and goes online when he's working...Aniwaes, I had DINNER at 3:45 then SMSed Nick...he was giving me encouragement...then i extracted 2 teeth ...right now, my gums are still bleeding...my lower jaw was numb like hell....( for those who don't noe, i have to push my lower jaw back but have to extract 2 teeth first ...i'm getting braces at the start of next year...) right...so i have two take 5 different types of medicine just for this...1 antibiotic...2 painkillers...1 for swelling and 1 antiseptic....here's a pic of my teeth...the roots are damn long... (not for the weak hearted)...

Sinking into oblivion...of boredom

2007-12-14T20:37:00.000-08:00

Woke at 1100hrs...my father shouted me out of bed...he says "sleeping until that kind of time is not allowed in this house...dammit...aniwaes..gonna extract 2 teeth today...my bottom jaw has to be pushed back...i don't think i'm getting braces today...

Yesterday i woke at 12 cause my father wasn't at home...then i walked around my house...my life is filled with boredom just so you all noe...there is really nothing to do at home on days like this, then clarissa also nvr tell me a bunch of ppl going to parkway...then i rotting at home...onli like three ppl online MSN...then all of them also busy doing something else...later at night got choir practice at church...John was wearing a trenchcoat thingy from Giant...he can soprano but not that high lah...then stopped to buy hay mee on the way back home...confrence from around 2315hrs until like 2330hrs...then my father came back and caught me on the phone...after that i watched tv until 0130hrs then went to bed...there was something troubling me but i couldn't tell what so i tossed and turned in bed until like 2+....

And so thats my boring day at home....

Best friends (another poem)

2007-12-13T22:57:00.000-08:00

I will always be there for you,

and hope that you will be there for me too,

for our friendship can never be broken,

i will remain loyal through the good and the bad,

and in the end we will be glad,

because without you i am nothing,

as you are nothing wihtout me,

we fill the space a lover couldn't fill,

for we hold each others secrets that we would never spill,

and the day you're gone, a part of me goes too,

because i wouldn't want to be here without you.

Best friends forever you and me,

nothing can ever change that; it's destiny.

MISSED EVERYBODY SOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!

2007-12-13T22:10:00.000-08:00

Just back from m'sia. I literally cried twice when i was in Malaysia, caused i missed all my friends... i noe i'm a crybaby...but its okay to cry about these things isn't it??...aniwaes, i bought presents for Clare, Shermaine, Clarissa, Alex, and Nick's b'dae there...burned a hole in my pocket...but its worth it i suppose...I went to Malaca, then KL. Didn't see any flooding though...visited some of my relatives... Everytime i go there i always do the same thing....quite boring after awhile...but i learned something...I love chicken rice and i hate chicken rice balls....

I would talk about Sunday's x'mas party but everybody would says the same thing in their blogs I mean, wouldn't it be really boring if you read like how many ppls blogs and they all say the same thing???

i can't wait to see all of u again soon...*sobs* Hope u liked the poem...the one i posted before this...

Remembering our days

2007-12-07T20:42:00.000-08:00

we shared...
laughs of joy,
moments of pain,tears of happiness!
we earned...
care,
understanding,
as well as a place, in the heart of one another!
we talked...
about our dreams,
about being best friends for life,
just about anything imaginable!
when in trouble...
you helped with all your strenght,
strenght from your love,
love from your warm heart!
when asked why...
you simply smiled,
you questioned back"what are friends for?"
we walked right beside each other,
as we felt a friendly breeze,
one that i shall never forget!
no matter where you'll be,
you'll always be in myheart,
just promise that i'll be in yours!
you are an angel,
who walked in my life!
i would hate to say goodbye
because it seems so soon
but then again we never will
since a part of us
are always with each other...

My first post....wow

2007-12-03T22:49:00.000-08:00

I'm don't have a single clue on how to design my blog.....somebody help....